Leadership Journal published an article by Mike Erre in their Winter 2014 issue.
The Way of Weakness: What my struggle with anxiety and depression taught me about God’s power
I had just transitioned from leading a college ministry to serving as the teaching pastor at RockHarbor Church (RH), a young, vibrant church plant. I was honored and amazed at the opportunity God has set before me, and desired to make a good impression for those who had trusted me with this role.
Four days after I started at RH I injured my knee playing basketball and found myself hobbling around with a torn ACL, MCL, and PCL. Surgery was performed five weeks later. That first night out of surgery I lay at home unable to sleep. I’m still not sure what happened, but it felt like I was suffocating. I felt a crushing weight on my chest and my heart began to race. I couldn’t focus. I was unable to relax. I was completely, and irrationally, terrified.
I managed to get through the night in a Vicodin-induced haze, but my anxiety didn’t go away …